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| 10:02pm 05/05/2003 |
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mood:  artistic music: 1,000,000 Miles Away- Zakk Wylde
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A drip of silently preying black blood,
A gentle slip of a silk woven petal,
A black beauty sustained in a blooming bud,
So thin it whimpers in the wind yet somehow presents the strength of metal,
Suspended up to the skies on a passage of thorns,
And spread out to the sun with petals of green,
Yet the darkness captivates and warns,
And puts the soul in a state of thoughts of the serene,
A symbol of love a symbol of grief,
Planted with the prosperous hope of growth,
A perfected creation that will cause anyone to believe,
The miracle of life and the undying perfection oath,
Something so easily destroyed,
Something so easily felt,
Something no human soul and can bring itself to avoid,
But more than anything an everlasting symbol of what you’ve dealt..
Ya.. I know it sucks.. but I felt like I needed to update.. |
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| Long Time No Write.. |
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| 10:25pm 20/04/2003 |
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mood:  depressed music: Black Label Society- Dead Meadow
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It's been awhile since I've written anything.. well life gets good and then it gets even worse.. I don't think I can handle it anymore.. as soon as I get over one horrible thing, another one has to happen, and not only to me.. my whole family.. it's like we're cursed.. i just don't think im meant to be happy.. i'll probably be one of those people who spends their life being alone living with a bunch of cats.. oh well.. break on through |
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| Maybe You Can Help.. |
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| 07:58pm 01/02/2003 |
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mood:  curious music: The Cure- The Hanging Garden
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Does anyone know what brand keyboard The Cure uses or a site where i possibly could find out.. my friend and i want to start a band that has a Cure style to it.. if anyone could help me out.. that'd be the greatest! thanks |
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| YAY!! |
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| 02:15pm 01/12/2002 |
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mood:  excited music: NIRVANA
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IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!! |
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| My Kitten =( |
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| 04:57pm 16/10/2002 |
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mood: depressed music: The Cure- Wish
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About three weeks ago my grandpa brought me a kitten from Ukraine..after having to put up with him for a 15hour flight he got here safe and happy. Everything was going great my kitten was energetic and playful..and about 3 days ago I guess he ate something he shouldn't have had..and has been throwing up non stop..we took him to the vet 3 times and it turns out theres something stuck in his stomach..and if he doesn't start eating by tonight he has to have a surgery...and I don't think we can afford it right now..because my mom already paid hundreds for all the vet visits..so if anyone can..please hope for the best...if he doesn't get better he's going to die in about 1-2 days..thank you...Wish for the best..i <3 this kitten..he is like my little brother... |
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| Bleed For Me |
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| 08:50pm 06/10/2002 |
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mood: peaceful music: Bleed For Me- Black Label Society
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Hey..long time no write again...I've been pretty busy with school..that hell hole..i hate everyday i have to spend there...during lunch I just sit there listening to my cd player while my so-called friends who care about me act like lesbians and get grapes thrown down their shirts..but besides all that..i had an okay weekend...i spent a lot of time with my new kitten =) its about time I got my kitten...he awesome..i've been practicing on drawing anime and i think i'm started to get the hang of it..today i went to see Home Sweet Alabama...haha..how touching..not really...ya..and afterwards to the vintage shop..that was the highlight of my day..i got this really cool Axl rose shirt..and kurt cobain and jim morrison notebook...and a pair of black and white striped tights and tie dye tights haha..they're cool...i think everyone should believe me when i say jim morrison is a sexgod..i saw him today on vh1's 100 most sexiest he was #7 that's pretty damn good for being a dead guy..haha he beat britney spears..go jim! well..i'm looking for someone who would want to go with me to the roxy to see jerry cantrell? .. i guess that is all i have to say..that wasn't very interesting oh well...bye |
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| day.. |
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| 06:10pm 08/09/2002 |
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mood: uncomfortable music: The Cure-Apart
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I got up at 9 this morning to go to art..which turned out to suck..there were already 4 other people there 2 of which were about 8..that needed a lot of attention..i was supposed to finish my card for the exhibition but my art teacher kept forgetting I was there..I sat there for 30mins waiting for to come and see if my format layout was okay or not..after that I had to go over to Marina Del Ray with my parents for a friend's birthday party..no one there was my age so I just sat there for about 2hours..on the way home I had to stop by the mall and return shoes again..and after that I really didn't do anything..I think i should stay off the computer for awhile..maybe I'll try that next week..it seems as though everytime I am on the computer..it makes me upset..I don't even understand why..if I'm not on for the next week you know why... I guess I'll go now..maybe try to finish that poem I started for probably the only person who will ever love me or has loved me..if he even does... |
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| Concerts... |
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| 10:37am 07/09/2002 |
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mood: excited music: The Doors-The Whiskey Song
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I haven't updated in a long time again. It's been really busy lately. I started school and I hate it so much..only 9 more months to go until next summer..but I have had some great times lately..last Saturday the 26th Jenna invited me to go to Ozzfest! It was awesome we got backstage passes from Kameron, Kim and Zack. Backstage we met Rob Zombie, Zakk Wylde, Nick from BLS, the drummer of SOAD(and we got a sign drumstick), and we were in the pit in front of the stage and on the stage during the first half of it. It was one of the best times I had in a long time. And it was the first time I hung out with Jenna in awhile, just like old days! Last night I invited Jenna to come to the California Speedway to see THE DOORS!!!!!!!!!! We didn't get backstage or right up in front of the stage, but it was still awesome! Ian Astbury did a good job but NO ONE can replace Jim Morrison! It was awesome to see Ray and Robbie play together again. Those are two events I'll remember forever! =) I'll try to write more..i try...and Jenna says hi! |
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| For Mika.. |
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| 04:02am 15/08/2002 |
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mood:  contemplative music: Type O Negative-October Rust
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Is it just me or does it seem we are growing apart? =(
Or maybe I was just looking forward to spending more time with you..like you once said you wanted to do...
Well, you've been a great friend no matter what.. |
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| Depressed Again.. |
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| 06:44pm 26/07/2002 |
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mood: depressed music: None-Tv is on
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Wow, it has been awhile since I have felt this shitty, but I should've known it would be coming soon. I'm so stupid for believing anyone would like me. I hate being depressed..especially when there are many people around. My parents start to yell at me for being so lifeless..I can't tell them I'm depressed or why I'm depressed. They just won't understand. They start questioning me and when I'm depressed I get aggravated easily...so then I start yelling at them. It turns out that I hurt their feelings. I can't help what I say or do when I feel this way. What ever comes out is all the emotion being locked up inside of me. I was supposed to see Austin Powers 2 tonight with Trevor, but no he has to go to a concert. Well I guess that is better than going to a movie with me..but he could've let me known before hand. Now I'm supposed to stay home alone..but my brother is feeling bad for me and wants me to go to the movies with him. I really don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything. I think I need to spend a night home writing, to get this anger and depression out. And I need to talk to Alex..but he's probably to busy at the concert. Oh well, if I matted to him like he says I do, he'd fine the time to call me. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day..Well, I'm off to start getting my emotion out..Should've listened to my friends when they warned me..too stupid for that I guess.. |
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| Floyd The Barber |
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| 01:28am 24/07/2002 |
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mood:  loved music: The Cure-LoveCats
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I have decided to write in my journal more often now. I will probably be quite bored the next week, so maybe this will give me something to do. A lot of shit has happened since I stopped writing..haha..it has only been a month. I guess I'll write about the thing that has made me most happiest this past month. That would be my relationship with Alex. He has made the happiest I have been in a long time, and I thank him for that everyday. The only bad thing is that hes going to be gone until Sunday. WeepWeep But, I'll get to see him on Monday again for sure! yay! I'm sure no one really cares..but oh well..it's my journal haha!! okay..well I'm done..I think I'm off to bed now...I will write more often now.. |
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| Kill Me. |
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| 07:17pm 18/07/2002 |
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Kill Me? Anyone?? Please..kill me kill me kill me..! Thank you all who will volunteer..true friends..kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me...please! |
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| This Weekend |
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| 07:56pm 09/06/2002 |
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mood:  blah music: The Cure-Just Like Heaven
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This weekend actually turned out okay besides all the packing and such. On friday I had my first band practice with my new band, Casual Stranger. Our singer couldn't come besides her we were all there. I think this band will turn out better than the other. I need to get together with Kim and work on some songs. That was pretty much my friday.
On Saturday I went to art as usual. I'm excited though, my artwork I'm working on right now may be put up as a display in the front window. That is of course if the other girl's picture turns out worse than mine. Which it probably will since she's been drawing there for 2years. I showed my art teacher my Kurt Cobain protrait, and she found only one thing wrong. I'm so happy, I thought she would say it sucked. Next weekend I get to shade it and such. After art we went to this new record shop. It's really cool I got 6 new records! After that we found a sheet music store and I got the Nirvana book for piano! Wee..It's great. I came home and packed..and I got really depressed for some reason and started crying..oh well..
Today I went to a Russian ballet in Hollywood. It was pretty good actually...as everyone says Russian ballets are the best in the world. Saw many many russians there and had a chance to make a fashion statement. YAY! Well then I came home and studied for finals..and now..i'm updating my journal..wow..write later |
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| Latest Poem-Sucky too! |
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| 08:47pm 05/06/2002 |
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mood: artistic music: The Mission UK-Love Me Two Times
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Looking for escape,
Looking for salvation,
Tracing every scrape,
Finding flaws in every creation,
Is there a true prefect being?
A true peace?
What is this world I'm seeing?
Take the world apart piece by piece,
Unravel the hidden truths,
Find the way of the prefect life,
Lead the right example for the youths,
Take away all the strife,
Talk away all the harm,
Keep believing tomorrow is a new day,
Another day to set off the alarm,
Another day-Another way,
Somewhere there is total bliss,
Somewhere there is hope,
A place where flaws cease to exist,
Where no one sheds a tear-no one needs to mope,
Take my hand,
Accept this ride,
You will reach the promised land,
You will no longer need to hide,
Life will be easy and carefree,
No longer will you be judged,
You will be answered-your every plea |
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| Jim Morrison |
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| 07:35pm 02/06/2002 |
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mood:  frustrated music: The Doors-People Are Strange
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Aww..I just finished watching, The Doors. It was the first time I've seen it. I must admit Jim is quite sexy! =) It was sad that he died...and Kim was right..he did get a beer belly before he died. It was a good movie anyway..in my opinion.And of course Jim and Kurt were sex gods and always will be. Sexy Men!
Besides that..my weekend pretty much sucked..and I'm in a pretty bad mood now. The birthday party...that was quite exciting. I don't think that I will be attending a party in the near future. Glad to know someone had fun. But, I did have some fun, at times. Other times, I felt left out, and not wanted. But oh well. That's life. It's nice to know someone else can relate to my problems..I hope I can trust her.
I did get my graduation dress today. Finally, I hate shopping. The people in the stores make me mad, they all crowd around one thing for like 10hours, making it impossiable to get through. I saw some of the nastiest things today. The dressing room was one big room full of mirrors, old and young ladies were trying on clothes. Some people seriously shouldn't wear the undergarments that they do. Luckily, there were like 10 private dressing rooms..I had to wait for 15mins eventhough I was there first, but its better than trying on clothes in front of everyone. I finally got my own record player too! It's so awesome, the amplifier makes it sound really good. Well I guess thats all I have to say..that wasn't really exciting...anyways.. |
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| Going To Kill The Computer |
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| 12:35am 01/06/2002 |
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mood: aggravated music: The Doors-Light My Fire
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| Going To Kill The Computer |
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| 12:35am 01/06/2002 |
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mood: aggravated music: The Doors-Light My Fire
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| Do You Know What It's Like To Have The Blues? |
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| 12:16am 01/06/2002 |
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mood:  tired music: Everlast-What It's Like
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Ahh..I'm so tired..I have been trying to get my site to work. I really need to learn how to use computers. Hmm..I suck at Html..Oh well..Can't do much about that. If my site ever does progress and actually becomes a site..I'll post it up in here... |
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